Psilocybin Retreat

I am excited to help you take control of those negative emotions and depressing thoughts. Let's unlock your full potential and achieve your personal goals. Hi! My name is Paul Guye. More than 10 years ago I reached a point in my life where religion wasn't able to fulfill the void in my heart. Negative thoughts and negative emotions dominated my everyday life to the point where I was not really able to enjoy something as simple as ice cream. Just walking through a store, it would sometimes feel like the entire ceiling was going to collapse or a semi-truck would smash through the wall. Extreme emotions cause extreme thoughts. I figured it wasn't a lack of an antidepressant or a lack of an alcoholic beverage that was causing these thoughts and emotions but rather it was something much deeper. It was a feeling that I had to deal with every day even though I had everything that a man could want. Endless conversations and arguing back and forth in my mind of things that happened long ago. I was living in "yesterday" instead of the "present moment". I also studied and knew so many scriptures from the Bible but still had many questions that would contradict what a lot of the preachers were saying. In other words, I felt that God had even abandoned me. Nothing really seemed to matter anymore. Why even go on living if this is what life is really like? There are some other thoughts that I had that I won't share here but I'm sure you can imagine those other thoughts. One day somebody mentioned that I should have a psychedelic experience. I hesitated of course because I never consumed any type of mine altering substances, not even marijuana. After the subject came up a few times, I began to research psychedelics. For 6 months I studied many different types of psychedelics. I looked into the side effects, safety and potency of each one. Based on the information I gathered, psychedelics were very safe if taken in a controlled setting and with the correct mindset. From all of my studying on the subject it seemed that psilocybin mushrooms were the best fit for me. This was the only one that I felt comfortable with trying. Psilocybin mushrooms are usually grown naturally, unlike other psychedelics like LSD, if it is manufactured wrong then there may be some major negative consequences. Also, the "trip" only lasted around 4 hours unlike other psychedelics that can last many hours longer. Some of the other kinds like ayahuasca cause some people to vomit and have major bowel movements during the experience. I'm not really into damaging my mind, having my mind altered for more than 12 hours like LSD or vomiting on ayahuasca. Psilocybin mushrooms were the best bet for me. That's why I prefer to help people in this way. The only "guide" for me was the John Hopkins study in Baltimore Maryland. I studied the dosage, the therapist that was present during the patient's experience. I even researched the correct music frequency and blindfolded myself to force the entire experience to be inward just like the Johns Hopkins study. I finally was able to dose myself in my own home. Knowing what I know now, it would have been better if I were to have had this experience outside of the United States where I'm not around familiar things, smells or reminders. A guide to help keep me calm through the trip would have been awesome. At least I made sure I was on the ground level in case I believed I could jump out of a window and fly. My wife Ingrid supported me in this journey and stayed sober by my side. I also had a very physically strong friend on standby that lived only 8 minutes down the road. If I got out of control, my wife could contact him for help. I was of course scared out of my mind as I dosed myself with a large enough amount to the point I could not turn back. It was all or nothing at this point. Immediately after I thought this was the stupidest decision I've ever made in my life. Panic wanted to set in but for some strange reason it would not take hold. After about 30 minutes into the session is when I covered my eyes and lay down with the music. Shortly after that, I died. (Ego death) Everything about myself, everything that I thought I was, shattered and collapsed as my soul ascended out of the body and connected with the one true god. I was no longer Paul but instead was now one with God. No separation whatsoever. My heart was torn open and was filled with love and understanding. I saw that this life is a projection of what was going on inside of me and that we separated from God to have this human experience but deep down we are never truly separated. It is only an illusion. During the experience, I was able to let go of past hurts and pains that were crippling my life. There was total perfection where I was and I saw that God is perfect and full of awe. God is true perfection but just like anything that is pleasurable can also become numb. Therefore God broke pieces of himself off, placed those beings inside of human bodies with a dose of amnesia. We entered into the world of suffering and forgot who we truly are. I say to you who is reading this... the world of suffering and pain was there to lead you back to the truth. You are a piece of God, experiencing your father's creation. God wants to know how it's like to win the lottery, sail on a boat, be used and abused. No matter how we see it, if it's fair or not, God wants to experience it all through us. I say that if you're at the end of your rope then tie a knot in it and hold on another day. Come down to Costa Rica to make that connection to the being that is sleeping inside of you. Once you see it for yourself, your understanding about your past traumas will process. Carl Jung or Friedrich Nietzsche said if we are able to "process" the negatives in life then what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. The key is to "process the pain" into Power. It's been more than 10 years since I've had the experience and I can't shut up about it. Weeks after my trip I was able to convince my wife to have the experience. She finally agreed and she was able to see what I saw. We then understood each other more and other people as well. We are able to "grow together. The day after that experience as I went out into public, I realized that everyone looked at me differently. One of the main reasons is because my self-image had changed therefore the outer world reflected that same image back to me. Read the book psycho cybernetics and you will see what I'm talking about. Even the money I was making went through the roof because I was able to revalue myself and therefore the outer world mirrored it back to me. Since I loved automobiles, I bought me a Dodge Viper and didn't even care how I would make the $1,000 a month payment. I knew the power that was within me to make anything work and I will show you how to do the same thing. Therefore, if you have a job and your self image changes from this experience, you may immediately find a new job or get promoted. The outer world is changing to match your self image. Some say that when things fall apart, they're actually falling together ;) I hear veterans and so-called "alcoholics" destroying their lives and even ending their lives but I believe deep down inside I know that there is a way out for them. I know that I can open up a paint shop and make tons of cash just so I can buy a bunch of stuff that I don't need. In my heart, I feel that I'm obligated to help connect people to God directly. No need for a mediator but rather a direct connection to the Creator that's been hiding himself within you this entire time. When I say that life for you will never be the same after a psychedelic ceremony, I truly know it. All of the holy books through stories, song and dance are actually telling you about the God that's within you trying to find his way back home. See the movie "The Never Ending Story" and you'll get my point. My wife and I are here to direct you to the truth. email or just give us a call :)