After years of spiritual seeking, doing shadow work, trying to find God, looking for (self)love, freedom and diving deep within myself through plant medicine, only one thing remains: Being mySelf.
This is the only 'thing' that has truly brought freedom, a true sense of aliveness (and lots of energy), empowerment, contentment, gratefulness, love and occasionally bliss and ecstasy.
How about I give you a hand in remembering the Powerful Being you truly are?
Details of this retreat
Integration is even more important than the psychedelic journey itself. It's about bringing in practice what you've learned, seen, healed and experienced. It's a grounding practice, bringing the higher self's teachings back down to this earthly life.
I've been trough it. I have been walking and wondering in the spirit realm in a dream-like state. I've seen the highs and the lows. It's all incredible, interesting, overwhelming, exhausting, in both the light and the dark, the highs and the lows. And now I have landed, grounded and I take it all into living a very down-to-earth life. It sounds boring, but the journey continues on a different level...
And here comes the big question:
HOW TO TAKE IT TO YOUR DAILY LIFE?
Do you experience:
- Falling back into old patterns?
- Not knowing how to integrate your most valuable lessons?
- Looking back at the psychedelic experience as traumatic?
- A lot of fear?
- Depression?
- Blockages?
- Dissatisfaction?
- Not meeting your own expectations?
- Not meeting your potential?
Who am I?
- Deep thinker
- I have deep emotional capacity
- I am highly empathetic
- I’m also Dutch, so I can be direct and honest about what I see/observe
- Down to earth
- Also familiar with the spirit realm
What do I bring?
- Psychologist in training
- Experience in travelling with psychedelics (30+ times)
- Experienced with guiding psychedelic ceremonies (150+ people)
How do I work?
- Videocall for 1 hour, 1,5 hour or even 2 hour sessions
- Just 1 session, or multiple sessions if needed
- Different styles, techniques and gifts personally tailored for you
- If you’re based in the Netherlands, or visiting the Netherlands, we can also see if it’s possible to meet face-to-face
Schedule
N/A
Note: Schedule is approximate and may change
What's Included
Videocall
What's Not Included
Psychedelic experience
Customer Reviews
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5.0
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A Profound Retreat Guided by Renate, Felix, and Zilver
I had a truly wonderful experience with Renate, Felix and Zilver. This was my second psilocybin journey, my first being in a group setting, and I wanted to explore what a private session would feel like. Renate kindly accommodated this, and I’m so grateful she did.
Before the ceremony we sat together, talked, and shared some tea. I chose to consume the truffles in a tea that Renate thoughtfully prepared, making sure it was done in the optimal and most effective way. The journey itself was everything I expected and more: profound, emotional, confronting, and deeply rewarding. Throughout the entire experience I felt completely safe in Renate’s capable, grounded, and compassionate presence. Her two wonderful cats, Felix and Zilver, were incredibly comforting guides, offering warmth and companionship at exactly the right moments.
When the ceremony came to a close, Renate prepared a meal while I took some time to settle and reconnect, with plenty of playtime from my two new furry friends. That night I slept peacefully, accompanied by Felix and Zilver. Zilver curled up at my feet while Felix rested near my head, where I could hear and feel his soothing, healing purrs. As someone who loves the company of cats, their affection added something truly special to the experience.
In the morning, Renate made breakfast and we spoke about my journey. She shared some of her own experiences and offered thoughtful guidance on integration, which I found incredibly valuable.
Renate’s home is beautiful, clean, and welcoming, with a private guest toilet and a peaceful atmosphere that immediately puts you at ease. I’m deeply grateful to her and to Felix and Zilver for welcoming me so openly and giving me the space to have such a meaningful experience.
I’m certain I will return.
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Friendly, informative, caring and honest
Renate is a lovely host with an especially warm, supportive, honest and direct disposition. She has a kind spirit and is keen to understand and help you but at the same time not scared to be direct and speak the truth, which seems a critically important quality in this journey. I felt very comfortable throughout from initial video call to saying goodbyes in-person. She was also very open and honest about her own experiences, issues and life situation. We had some very engaging conversations and I did not experience any negativity, judgement or awkwardness. Many thanks and much love Renate. Peace, love and unity.
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Unique and enlightening
Truly Loving provides a unique and enlightening psilocybin experience to aid one's journey of self-discovery and collective consciousness. It helps dissolve ego-mind, worry and stress. I felt at ease from the initial video call, to the experience itself and parting ways the following day. The host is warm, caring, informative and honest. Clear advice is given from the get-go through to integration and aftercare. Personally I found the truffles (underground mushrooms) effective on a double dosage and patience is important, best not to overly anticipate or force any outcome - just go with the flow and practice presence, guided by the music with a blindfold. The effect was still fairly mellow and not overwhelming or uncomfortable in any way, shape or form. The sound selection was pure bliss and the host has a beautifully captivating singing voice, honestly inspiring! These factors and the two lively house cats elevated the experience for me. Many thanks and much love Renate, I am most grateful.
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A magical and mystical experience
My retreat experience was great, better than I expected. It was the first time I used plant medicine and didn’t know exactly what to expect but Renate supported me during the whole process. The experience I had helped me get insights and reinforced things I already knew but struggled to focus on, believe or put into action. I am only at 3 days post retreat but it seems to have released some of the physical issues I had as well. Renate’s cats also helped during the ceremony, I was impressed with how intuitive and in tune with what I needed. I am very grateful to all 3 of them! Now the maintenance and integration part starts.
5.0
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Magical Experience
It has been an amazing weekend under the care of Renate and David - and of course the two "spirit guide" cats.
There was a ton of support and great knowledge to guide everyone through their ceremonies.
The location was lovely as well in the peaceful countryside.
The small groups make it very personal and give everyone the opportunity for a lot of sharing and personal interaction.
Renate has been super insightful and with great intuition for what was going on inside me so with all the exchange and advice I have made some great progress.
I can only recommend this.
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