Chi Psilocybin

I am a facilitator, connector and mentor for journeyers at every stage of the psilocybin initiation: from curious seeker to experienced guide and grower.
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I support journeyers to manage expectations, let go of rigid ideas, and approach psychedelic experiences with a long-term perspective. Having learned from many challenging medicine journeys, I help others avoid common pitfalls. The more I work with and learn from the mushrooms, the more I feel like their humble student, with important lessons to share with others.
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For most of my life, I’ve suffered from addiction, depression, and low self-esteem. The mushrooms have helped unravel and heal the root causes of some of these issues. The work is infinite. As my personal journey has been one of profound evolution, I’m honored to introduce others to the process of uncovering, facing and healing buried wounds, so they can move forward from a place of acceptance and understanding.
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My childhood was, in many ways, defined by my parents’ difficult marriage and my response to the household tensions. As the firstborn son, I often felt responsible for and helpless about their relationship. I did everything in my power to compensate for these feelings. But no matter what I did or accomplished, I never felt good enough.
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From a young age, I’ve had an addictive personality. Lacking healthy coping mechanisms, I suppressed or ignored difficult emotions with destructive habits.
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In my twenties, I was fortunate enough to study with Buddhist teachers who were full of compassion and wisdom. I spent months at a time in silent retreat. I took temporary monastic vows in Burma twice. I did everything I could to be a “good” and happy person.
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Still, I felt empty and unfulfilled. I used meditation as an escape from unresolved emotional trauma; from my guilt and shame. But I lacked discipline and was unable to keep up a practice on my own. I constantly fell back into patterns of misery.
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I was desperate.
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I prayed for help, and that was when psychedelics entered my life. My first LSD journey opened my eyes and heart to some of the difficult emotions I had been carrying for years. Soon after that, I had my first joyful experience with magic mushrooms. I had resisted psychedelics for so long, but now there was no turning back.

In summer 2018, after having gone through about ten high-dose journeys and witnessing the transformative power of psilocybin in my own life, I organized two sessions for my dad. Watching him go through his first psychedelic experiences opened my heart and mind to another dimension of healing. True compassion for my father flowed through me for the first time. These experiences gave me confidence and inspired me to begin tripsitting for others.

Having had the privilege to witness and support hundreds of people since, I am grateful for the opportunity to continue sharing the mushroom journey with those who feel called to experience the magic.