Verdesana, Cartago Province, Cartago, Costa Rica
Up to 12 in group
Oct 29 - Nov 3, 2026
About this Retreat
Hi! I'm Amanda! I am a massage therapist with over 23 years in the healing arts, a death doula, a licensed psilocybin facilitator and a grief-tender.
My personal relationship with grief began in 2006 when my daughter died at birth. The devastating loss and trauma left me utterly bereft, without a compass to navigate that dark and lonely landscape of grief and depression.
In time, I sought out mentors, old ways and traditional practices of grieving, and the potent healing of plant medicine ceremonies. What began as a journey to mend my own broken heart became an apprenticeship with grief itself- guided by a motivation to become for others the person that I had needed when my loss was fresh and raw.
Facilitating grief and psilocybin retreats has been the most meaningful work of my life and dreaming this special retreat into existence has been a very special initiation. I offer this retreat as the culmination of 20 years of walking intimately with grief. It is a tribute rooted in love, legacy and a deep compassion for my fellow grieving hearts.
Caroline is a licensed psilocybin facilitator, grief worker, artist, poet and mother whose work is rooted in grief tending, nature connection and creative integration. She approaches this work with reverence and compassion, creating spaces where people can safely meet with and move through grief and loss.
Both grief and psilocybin have been profound teachers in Caroline's own life and inform the work she does, the art she makes, and the way she serves. Her offerings are shaped by gratitude for what these teachers have catalyzed in her personally, and by devotion to supporting others as they move through bereavement, end of life, and the complex emotional terrains of being human.
Caroline co-leads regular grief retreats in Oregon. She is drawn to supporting individuals as they turn toward the parts of themselves that have been neglected or shaped by sorrow, fear, or shame, and believes that these parts hold their own wisdom and the potential for greater wholeness.
Caroline's approach emphasizes a remembering of our belonging- to one another, to the living world, and to the cycles of life, death, and renewal.
Details of this retreat
Renewal, connection and ceremony in the mystical Costa Rican cloud forest.
Together, we will explore what is possible when grief is acknowledged as a catalyst for deeper meaning, purpose and connection.
We will honor grief as a sacred rite of passage- an initiation that reshapes identity by dismantling who we once were and inviting us into a deeper, more conscious becoming.
Like all true initiations, grief takes us into the unknown, leaving us adrift without a map to navigate the dark and disorienting terrain. Traversing this liminal space, parts of us are stripped away, our inner landscape is rearranged, and we must learn how to inhabit life differently.
It is in this very undoing of our former selves, that we have the opportunity to rebuild with more intention and distilled clarity for who we are and what matters most.
Grief is a natural response to loss and change- the soul’s way of honoring what we love. Yet in today’s world, we are often urged to move on quickly, numb out, silence our sorrow or to carry it alone.
When left unacknowledged, grief can take root in the body and spirit, showing up as anxiety, depression, addiction, isolation, anger, burnout, dissociation or physical imbalance.
When we create a safe and compassionate space to tend to our grief and allow it to move through us — with reflection, ceremony and community — it becomes possible to alchemize it into a catalyst for growth and healing, inspiring more presence, purpose, and reconnection with ourselves, with others and the living world around us.
This retreat is designed to hold you in this tender process- offering practical tools to tend to your grief in embodied ways including somatic practices, time in nature, shared witnessing, ritual frameworks for meaning-making, grounding resources you can return to over and over again, and a psilocybin ceremony to explore the liminal spaces of grief and healing.
You will be supported to explore and integrate who you are becoming, how grief has changed you and what your regeneration process looks like.
Each day of the retreat unfolds as a part of an intentional arc- a passage into and through the depth and teachings of grief.
We begin by honoring what has been lost. Through reflection, embodied practices, and communal witnessing, we will explore themes such as identity, purpose, and the way grief lives in the body. We learn from grieving practices from other cultures, observing that loss and sorrow have always been a communal experience, not a solitary one.
As we move deeper, ritual carries us through the heart of the passage… alter-making ceremony to honor our ancestors and beloveds gone too soon… a fire ceremony to release what is no longer ours to carry… a beautiful hands-on herbalism experience- harvesting medicinal plants on the land to make a heart-soothing tea as a reminder of nature’s capacity to nurture us.
All of this prepares us for an optional psilocybin mushroom ceremony. In a safe and supported circle, participants are invited on an inward journey – the liminal space at the center of every true initiation.
And then we begin to return, weaving in the important elements of integration.
On our final evening, we emerge from our initiatory passage with an evening of live medicine music – moving our bodies, lifting our spirits and honoring the resilience of the human heart.