3-day Intimate Psilocybin Retreat + Coaching and Integration - Netherlands

I was really nervous to attend the retreat. Niels and Femke and also the Group where very warm and welcoming so I felt safe real soon. The experience is one of a kind and difficult to describe. Sometimes it was great and sometimes it was hard. But i really learned a lot about myself and my internal dialogue, feelings and patterns. I’m grateful that I took this journey.

It’s been an excellent experience receiving support from Femke and Niels. The whole experience from the point of booking to the end of ceremony and even until now, a couple of weeks later, itt’s as if someone’s constantly and firmly holding your hand and walking along through the journey. Reached the venue easily on the day of the journey based on the detailed instructions provided. Received warm welcomes from Femke and Niels. Then in a matter of Agee minutes managed to settle down following gentle and clear directions from the pair. After initial introductions and a small break we had an extraordinary experience through a breathing exercise. This was followed by the actual ceremony that lasted a few hours. Then had a wonderful meal followed by some experience sharing and a surprise group activity :-). We then slowly retired for the night after some socialising to wake for a lovely breakfast. Soon the journey for that day came an end after heart full hugs and byes. And the handholding is not yet completed. Fem and Niels have setup post ceremony checkpoint call that I will be attending soon. Overall, the hospitality, insights, love & care have left a great mark on me. I will be ever so grateful for the wonderful setup created by Fem and Niels for my experience. Thanks a ton and I have absolutely no hesitation in recommending them.

This retreat was a christmas present from me to my girlfriend who has always been a spiritual person and even though I wasn't, she had inspired me to walk on new (spiritual) paths to find out more about myself. So this retreat seemed like the perfect adventure for us.

I guess it's fair to say that many people are a little anxious before their first time trying magic truffles or mushrooms and it was no different for us. But we were also very excited about what we would experience and I can only speak for myself when I say that I've always had trouble shutting off my conscious, rational mind (during meditation, everyday life, social situations and sometimes even at night). I figured a truffle retreat would help me finally achieve this. So my intention for this journey was to find peace of mind, tranquility and answers for "faults" that I had been unable to solve for years. My girlfriend on the other hand had always struggled with trust and with feeling truly loved. So her intention was to finally find out what profound love and trust feel/look like.

(I will not touch on the preparation and introduction phase because you can already find the timeline of the retreat itself and the weeks/months leading up to it on the website)

After having met our fellow “travellers”, Niels and Femke asked us to put on a sleep mask and we all laid down on individual sleeping pads that were spread out across the room. He then guided us through an intense breathwork ceremony. This was an incredible, fascinating and beautiful experience that left all of us in tears. Before this experience I had always thought that yes our breath is powerful but I can mostly use it to calm myself down. I had had no idea that breathwork could cause me to feel such intense joy and gratitude or could lead me to feeling such a deep connection with the ones I love.

After the breathwork session and about an hour break, the psilocybin ceremony started. We drank/ate the truffles, put the sleep mask back on and laid down on the sleeping pads again. All the while Niels and Femke were there to comfort us if necessary and they did a fantastic job at tending to individual needs, fears and emotions.

It took a while before the psilocybin took hold of us but when it did, it became one of the most positive, emotional, liberating, clarifying and profound experiences of our (my girlfriend and I) lives. I don’t want to go into details since it was a very intimate journey but we both had massively impactful insights into things from our childhood/youth that we hadn’t been able to access before. Memories resurfaced that we never thought we were still carrying inside. I was finally able to see the connections between my “faults” and I realized that they all had the same cause. This was something I hadn’t been able to see before and after I “woke up” I grabbed my notebook and drew a mindmap of how it was all connected. It felt like the proverbial puzzle to which I had finally found the long lost last piece.

While my journey was somewhat analytical, my girlfriend had a very vivid one. She saw her own birth and saw all her loved ones who gave her comfort. She got to feel the profound sense of love and trust that she had been looking for. She was confronted with difficult things from her past and was able to forgive in a way that the conscious, rational mind is not able to forgive.

Ever since the ceremony my girlfriend and I have been more in tune with ourselves. We have gained a much deeper understanding of ourselves and a new outlook on our lives. My girlfriend feels a kind of love, gratitude and joy that she hadn’t before and friends tell her that it’s “contagious.” And I feel the same way. We both feel that this journey has triggered incredibly positive changes within us that we probably wouldn’t have been able to trigger otherwise.

Thank you for your guidance and this amazing experience!!

Kind, caring and supportive! Thank you, Femke!

Niels is a skilled facilitator. He prepares his retreat events perfectly, taking care of all details that come together resulting in the best experience possible. He inspires trust and confidence in the participants. Thank you, Niels.